Showing posts with label Essences. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Essences. Show all posts

When You Miss Someone

Happy Monday Kids!
  So Ive been missing my Narabean like terribly lately. She fell the other day and her little ginger coconut is all having to take a break from all the complications that are the computer. Concussions are not fun kids, watch yourself and dont hit your head when you fall, ok? But most people dont know Nara has been my sl daughter for the majority of the last 2 years... things have been interesting and we had to take some breaks along the way to grow and reflect. But like that stray cat you feed.... we always come back together. I will say I have kind of adopted her in my real life, she is truly a part of my family.
  So I have been a little lost without my building buddy for the last bit of days. We could just sit and draw from one anothers creativity, its just something I am incredibly used to and so I am missing my little girl. So today I channeled my inner Naraelina.... and came out looking like someone who works for the geek squad at Best Buy. But, I kinda like it I feel very smart and stuff:)
  Anyway that is all for today just wanted to share my geeky look with the world so here you go!

XOXO,
Brie

(You too can look like an employee of Best Buy's Geek Squad!)

Skin: Essences - Monday skin - Untouched - brown
Hair: ::Exile:: Sexy Action News:Sunset
Ears: [MANDALA]STEKING_ears_ver2
Glasses: MIEL GENIUS PEEPERS
Shirt: [Pumpkin]The cardigan(white)
Pants: :[strip'd]: Slacks [Black]
Shoes: [monso] My Combat Ankle Boots
Pocket Protector: [croire] pocket protector

Always a Bridesmaid

Well Happy (almost) New Year!
  I have sadly been feeling a bit in the dumps lately. I shouldn't but then like we don't have an off button for feeling, though I truly wish I did. For Christmas this year I watched 4 friends get engaged both in real life and second life... and lately my SL Daughter/RL Friend get married, and my Godsparkle get engaged. I am so very happy for all of these people because Love is beautiful and rare and when it happens you need to hold it tight. That said it also makes my heart a little sad and here we are, me wishing it wasn't.
  I have been with my boyfriend for going on 5 years and we have lived together almost 4 and a half of those. For those who dont know me, we met in SL almost 5 years ago and well, it was a surprising love but it is very much love all the same. He has been an amazing partner to me in real life, he has cared for me with my Meniere's Disease and been a exceptional father to my daughter. I have been married before and so I know the alternate version of this story.... him I am truly grateful to have in my life.
  The only thing is I sincerely have never seen myself old and still with the person I was in a relationship with... not even my ex-husband. We were married nearly a decade and I always knew it was not going to last, I don't regret it though I learned a lot about myself from him and what I want in a partner. But boyface, I see myself old and still with him, like those cute little old people who still at 80 hold hands when they walk down the street. I have never felt it was ok to just be me with someone till I met him, so I just want that evidence he feels that for me too.
  But for his own reasons, and much to my hearts ache he doesn't want to get married. Logically I know its for his reasons, it has little to do with me personally. But my heart feels like it is that I am not enough for him as a person, that maybe there is someone out there he would much rather give that commitment to, he just hasn't met her yet. Now before you yell at me, don't. I know this isn't the reason just makes me sad and something I will just have to get over in time. And before you tell me we dont HAVE TO get married... this I know as well. But I am not exactly well and though I am not 80 I certainly am not 20, I have a child who loves him and I would like him to legally be her parent. These things can not happen unless we are married, the ways to achieve this otherwise are lengthy and complicated and just too expensive. And frankly, I love the man more than I have loved anyone outside of my grandma and children, and I just would like to be able to say "This is my husband" and mean it.
  I really hope the new year allows me to make peace with this and just enjoy things as they are. I am lucky to have found someone who loves me, not everyone has this in their life and I really should just be grateful for that. I think once I come to terms with it and put that away I will be able to enjoy things a little more. So I guess my resolution is to enjoy being in the moment more, if that makes any sense. Thanks for letting me rant here to you, you always are such a good listener.

Have a great New Year and be safe.
XOXO,
Brie

The Greatest Gift

Well happy Monday to you!

  Today's lesson is one in forgiveness. Hey, we are all human (yes, even you over there) and we all make mistakes. I know, some are bigger than others and it just seems like you will never get to a place you can even look at that person again but hey, you so can. It takes a leap of faith which is hard for us people types but it is totally doable.

  I have had a downright retched year, I lost 2 really important people in my family's life and when that happened everyone but my fiance and my child turned their back on me. I was left with no support which even now when I think about it makes me really sad. I dont expect much from those around me so when I was left to grieve with little support it was really hard and left me feeling a little bitter. And then when I thought things could not even get worse, I had to deal with the SL Dramas and the Trolls there who basically bullied me out of the grid for a while.

  But in that time I did some healing, a lot of crying and most importantly I forgave them. Because they are human and some people were misled, others are just sheep... blindly following the popular crowd. Mainly people act they way they do usually out of some sort of fear, and that is something we have all felt at some time.

  I was left with 2 choices, I could A) Stoop to their level and be just as hateful and angry as I could muster or B) Forgive them and just move on with my life and live it the best way I possibly could. I chose B, I chose to let it go, life is just too short to hang on to things like this. If you carry all that hurt and anger around it becomes a huge weight on you. Have you ever seen a depressed person standing straight and tall? No, and you know why? Because all that sadness and anger and hurt, it is weighing them down. I chose to leave it on the side of the road of life and keep going.

  When you take that road you will find you are more content with your life and those who have hurt you in the past do not hold that power over you any longer. I am more content with my real life and second life since I took this path of forgiveness. Its not perfect but in the end, I can only control myself and my own actions. And when worst comes to worst you remember Karma, it works for the good as well as the bad. I put the positive out there and wait for good things to come my way.

Have a great night kids!
XOXO,
Brie

My super cute outfit:

Pose is Je t'aime 5m by Adorkable Poses (Cause she rocks and has good turkey recipes)
Skin: Essences - Heidy Base Skin
Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Amelie Mesh Hair - Rouge
Dress: (CM) Woolsworth Dress MESH (argyle/black)
Tights: DeeTaleZ tights cotton pantyhose black
Shoes: lassitude & ennui Selene boots black
Nails: Synthetique Ultimate French Series -01-
Tattoo: - DAMNED - Neck Tattoo "I Love you"

I Can't Wait 'till Wednesday...

Hey there me again,
  I'm really liking this letter writing format for my blog. I hope you are enjoying it, if not there are about a billion others out there... sure you will find one that suits you. It is the internet they have billions of things to suit every walk of life it seems. My husband tells me if you think it up chances are there is a website out there and it's probably porn. He is a special snowflake and he tends to think in the gutter a lot.
  So today's rant is in lieu of this weeks United State Elections. I seriously voted almost a month ago and I can not wait for it to be over. I would like to think I am a logical, intellegent woman but some of the "debating" I get into with others, I am wondering where they get their information from. It is downright sad and scary. I am all for debating though, I think it is a fabulous way to learn something and hey maybe you get a new point of view on a subject and that is always I think very enlightening. Plus it is a great way to get to know how someone ticks, their life has given them their most fundamental of beliefs so you really can learn a lot about someone just from the give and take of debating any given topic.
  With the Presidential nonsense going on it has brought a lot of hot button topics out onto the surface. I have engaged in many many exchanges with people with some very different views from mine. I have been yelled at, agreed with and been told I am downright wrong. I find it interesting when I am told the latter because frankly, having a opinion about something is rarely "wrong". I mean unless you think drowning kittens is OK, then I'm sorry, you are so so wrong. And you may need therapy, just saying.
  But in the end, arguing over opinions is about as ridiculous as my beautiful portrait up there. It is a total "moot" point, it has no value so you should just learn to respect that the other person is entitled to theirs and either debate it out or hush. Because you could get in a seriously heated argument with a complete stranger over anything and come out of it learning something new. BUT, if you are too busy being right you may miss something incredibly valuable you never knew, and then you are truly the one who misses out.
  And so my fellow Americans, embrace our freedom of free speech and choice and OPINION. In many countries you could be jailed or executed for any of these things. We are sincerely blessed and special to be free and able to have these rights, cherish them and give your neighbors the same respect because it is just the right thing to do. Whether you vote or not that is up to you but be glad you live here because so many people brave many dangers just for the chance to walk on this soil. And if all else fails, don a tutu, helmet and sparkley wand and run naked (or almost naked) through your neighborhood. In other words, dont take stuff so serious :)

XOXO,
Brie

Case you care what im wearing:

Pose: Adorkable Poses - Falling #5
Skin:Essences - Heidy Base Skin (TDR this week)
Hair: !lamb. Wild at Heart (Mesh) - Milkshake
Tattoo: . Sweet Sin . Skull Flower
Helmet: Asphyxia Black Bunny War Helmet (found on MP)
Tutu: **DECO - MESH Tutu (coconut)**
Shoes: SLink Ashia Ballet Pointe Onyx

52 Weeks of Color - Week 8, Raspberry

Before I got sick in real life I was a bookeeper and when I was in the professional world I would have totally rocked this look.

The Head-to-Toe of it:
Skin: {.essences.} Kandia Porcelaine (Nude Blush and Freckles layers added)
Hair:Tiny Bird - Love You More - Bright Blonde
Coat: The Secret Store - Bow-Lero - Raspberry
Top: EVALE Tube Top White
Skirt: Together Inc. PencilSkirt black
Shoes: [Gos] Platform Pumps - Just Black
Stockings: N-core Stocking "Black Seam"
Earrings: GK - Fleur - Plat - Earrings
Eyelashes: Miamai_NoAlpha Lashes_ N02
Bag: Izzie's - Satchel Bag black

52 Weeks of Color Challenge - Week 5, Patina

Enjoying this challenge? You can participate too you know! Go here to see how!
Head-to-Toe:
Skin: {.essences.} Azalia skin (TFG)
Hair: >TRUTH< Leesa 2 w/Roots - sandlewood
Eyes: :[Plastik]:-Haunt Collection-Frost
Nails: [ Love Soul ] Posing nail*Oval-Pearl*
Lashes: [sauce] back to basics lashes
Shirt: The Sea Hole - Gittana Sheer panel Blouse - Patina
Pants: The Sea Hole - Aurelie Paige Britches - SeaGlass
Jewelry: GK - Fine Diamonds
Bare Feet: Slink Womens Natural Barefeet (Mesh Rigged)

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