SL Disneybound Blogger Challenge – Week 4 – Snow White

Some Day My Prince Will Come 

From Snow White And The Seven Dwarfs

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know

Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true

What I'm Wearing

Skin: Glam Affair - Ginny - America - 03 Red

Hair: [e] Sound - Black 04

Hairbow: Remarkable Oblivion - Briar Bow Headband - Red - Plain

Eyelashes: MG - Eyelashes - Groomed

Shirt: /artilleri/ carlita top *blue*

Vest: DCNY Sky Open Vest 

Skirt: Happy Undead - Mini Skirt [vinyl yellow]

Tights: Maitreya Tights (Pinched) * Royal

Shoes: MDL- Bailarina - Gatito Rojo-

Jewelry: *MM* Apple Charm Jewelry Set

Nails: Synthetique Red Colour Tactics Series

SL Disneybound Blogger Challenge – Week 1 – Peter Pan

I wish things could always be this way.
You've got to grow up sometime, they say.
But I think we'll be kids forever.
They tell the bad boys to be good.
As if they ever could?
Or even know how.
Now look at this from my perspective.
It may not be right..
But it's the way we live.
I could stare at the clouds all day.
And forget we've got authority to obey.
Because we really don't care.
You should see the way we grin.
To survive this world we live in,
We've got to take it easy..
And growing up ain't easy.
Don't you wish we could be kids forever?
I'd like to be a kid forever. 

Insecurities

Well hi there!
  Lately I have been struggling with some real life insecurities, I am putting this out there so maybe someone can help me get over it or maybe tell me I am not crazy for being so scared. Ever been in a relationship where he or she has had 1 friend (usually of the opposite sex) that makes you super uncomfy? Yeah that's where I am lately. I hate it and its driving me nuts.
  A little back story, I was in a very physically and mentally abusive marriage for 9 years, I left him 11 years ago but there are still some.... residuals if that makes sense. He loved to cheat on me, usually with hookers or random women he met on on-line bulletin boards (this was back when the "internet" was mainly AOL and Prodigy for you younger kids) and then would tell me how horrible and unattractive I was, how he was the best I could do. Basically he was doing me a favor by keeping me around. Sounds like a lot of fun right? In the end I ran for my life when he held an unloaded rifle at me and while I was on the phone to 911 proceeded to explain to them how he had a gun and he was going to shoot me. Loaded or not, if you ever been at the business end of a firearm, that will change you forever make no doubt.
  So you fast-forward to almost 5 years ago, I meet my Walter and we eventually fall in love. I move here to be with him because well, love is rare and when you find it, you should do whatever to make it happen. Now I will be the first to admit, I am a bit off. Not in the scary way I just have had an interesting life, and though it has shaped me into a basically awesome human being... it is not without its drawbacks. Currently it is this overwhelming fear with him and his female friendship.
  He played SL quite regular with me until about 2 years ago when unfortunately I let this box become the most important thing in my life and I sadly was neglecting him and our relationship and at times depriving my child the time she needed to have with just her and I. I am not proud of it and I have made many strides to overcome this, to put Second Life and the people from it in a more healthy place on the priorities scale. Sadly I think those choices have done some irreparable damage to our general relationship.

  So now I have this for the most part perfect boyfriend (I mean nothing is perfect but you know) who I have caught a few times, sneaking on SL to help his "friend" with some really risque photographs and our phone bill reflects hundreds of texts and phone calls that last sometimes for well over an hour. I have caught him sneaking about to talk to this person and now this voice... who sadly sounds just like my ex-husband is screaming in my head all sorts of really horrible situations. My fears and yes, insecurities bubble to the surface that someone I love so deeply is going to get bored or find someone better and move on from me. I mean what is to stop him? We have no commitment, he is free to ask us to go anytime and have no ramifications
  I know this all sounds probably a little nuts but think about it, we have all felt this way at one point or another, we all have that fear of being left behind by someone... of being REPLACED. I have added factors of my past marriage and the fact that we have a 12 year age difference, I wonder what a young man like him sees in a old used up woman like me. And before you think I'm feeling sorry for myself I'm not. I feel incredibly blessed to have someone who loves me even if I for the life of me can not  understand why he does. I just have this internal struggle that I wish I could put to rest and just enjoy things and not worry so much about something that hasn't happened yet, if it is even going to at all.
  So anyway thats me lately all crazy and confused and wishing so bad to just feel normal for a while. I hope maybe you can suggest something or even if this just helps you feel not so alone in the world of insecurities then Im glad I got to share with you.

XOXO,
Brie

( case you are oogling my pretty avatar this is how I got her to be so pretty)
Hair: Charmed (white 5) by [e]
Skin: Glam Affair - Amberly - Petal edition - Melodia
Ears: [MANDALA] Steking EARS
Tattoo: erratic / koi tattoo
Necklace: P.C; Amethyst Nest Necklace - Purple
Ring: P.C; Diamond Encrusted Square Cut Amethyst Ring
Nails: Synthetique Ultimate French Series -Complete- (Set to black tip french)
Breasts: Lola! Tangos
Dress: [LWL] Cocktail Shift (Violet) (with lola tango applier for this dress added)
Shoes: [LWL] Luxe Patterned Pumps (Poppies, Pink Pop)

Interesting Day is Interesting

  Today started off kinda bad, then kinda good.... but ended AMAZING.

  So someone done switched the world's AC on over the Phoenix area and it has been damn cold lately (well, for us anyway). So I didn't sleep terribly well and so when I had to drag myself up to get my daughter off to school, well... I looked like death. It wasn't pretty and hense, today was a take your kid to school in pajamas day.

  I get her dropped off and stop on the way home at the convenience store on the corner here by my house and walk in, get the largest cup they sold coffee in and fill that puppy up. Cream? Don't mind if I do, oh yes and 3 sugars, thank you very much. So I go pay for my coffee, well attempt to anyway because when I open my wallet, my card is gone. Not amused. So I look at the lady and ask if I can run to my car to see if I have $1.74 in change. I go look in the little thing I keep change in, $0.60. I hang my head and walk back into the store and begin to explain to the lady I am sorry she can dump the coffee, I don't have enough for the coffee. I, am absolutely mortified.

  Out of the corner of my eye a $20.00 bill floats by and a male voice behind me says "It's ok I will buy this cup for her". Now mind you, I look like I am about to cry, I am exhausted oh and did I mention I am in slippers, penguin pajama pants, a t shirt and a sweater with my hair in a cute bun? Yeah I'm hot right? So I turn around and just stare and kind of mumble that it's OK he doesn't have to, then rests his hand on my back and says "God bless you miss" and just walks out the door. It was hands down the best cup of coffee I ever had, and was so nice to know that there are still good people in this world.

  So you would think thats it right? You are like "Wow, that Brie is easy to please!" Umm, no. So about 6 months ago, my "husband" (and I use this term loosely as we were only cohabitating for 10 and a half months and NEVER once slept together) finally after almost 4 years of me whining, filed for divorce. So I am like, "Let me hit this ass up and see if this is done yet because I haven't received anything in the mail". I text him and he tries to convince me it was final last week and I should hear something any day, blah.. blah.. blah. I don't believe him, I mean there's a reason we aren't married, right?

  So I call up the old Google and start looking, calling, pestering... finally get the self-help legal aid center at the courthouse our divorce was filed at and this super sweet older sounding lady who had an adorable accent and kinda broken English. I begin my speech with "My unfortunate husband filed for divorce (and here the lady starts cracking up) about 6 months ago, I was wondering if you could direct me who to call to find out if it is final or not." I proceed with "You see, I moved to Phoenix 4 years ago and have well on moved on with my life. I would really like to continue it without being attached to him in any way."

  So she asks if I know the case number, which I dont. But then she asks my name and looks it up that way and I could almost hear her smile when she says "Well, Ms. Pitta, your divorce was final today as a matter of fact." I then kinda yelled a little (sorry lady send me the bill for your new hearing aid) and told her I loved her dearly and she is still laughing at this point. She chokes out the case number and tells me I will have a letter from the court soon, congratulates me and tells me to have a great day.

  Oh, my goodness I am on a cloud, I am so happy to have that part of my life over with. I really am glad things seem to be ending in 2012 better than they started that's for sure. Now just to get through the dreaded holidays and onto a new year and new beginnings.

  I hope your Tuesday was just as eventful.

XOXO,
Brie

Pose: Cultureshock 2 by Hopskotch
My Celebratory Outfit:
Skin: Glam Affair - Roza - Brr & Etci 03
Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Christy Mesh Hair - Reds Pack
Eyelashes: Miamai_Catwalk Lashes_Evergreen 03 Erotica
Dress: (Milk Motion) lace dress - green
Shoes: N-core ESSENCE "Noir Intense"
Ring: EarthStones Bridal - Twist of Fate Wedding Rings
Bracelet: EarthStones Diamond Tennis Bracelet - Platinum
Nails: Synthetique Ultimate French Series -01-

The Greatest Gift

Well happy Monday to you!

  Today's lesson is one in forgiveness. Hey, we are all human (yes, even you over there) and we all make mistakes. I know, some are bigger than others and it just seems like you will never get to a place you can even look at that person again but hey, you so can. It takes a leap of faith which is hard for us people types but it is totally doable.

  I have had a downright retched year, I lost 2 really important people in my family's life and when that happened everyone but my fiance and my child turned their back on me. I was left with no support which even now when I think about it makes me really sad. I dont expect much from those around me so when I was left to grieve with little support it was really hard and left me feeling a little bitter. And then when I thought things could not even get worse, I had to deal with the SL Dramas and the Trolls there who basically bullied me out of the grid for a while.

  But in that time I did some healing, a lot of crying and most importantly I forgave them. Because they are human and some people were misled, others are just sheep... blindly following the popular crowd. Mainly people act they way they do usually out of some sort of fear, and that is something we have all felt at some time.

  I was left with 2 choices, I could A) Stoop to their level and be just as hateful and angry as I could muster or B) Forgive them and just move on with my life and live it the best way I possibly could. I chose B, I chose to let it go, life is just too short to hang on to things like this. If you carry all that hurt and anger around it becomes a huge weight on you. Have you ever seen a depressed person standing straight and tall? No, and you know why? Because all that sadness and anger and hurt, it is weighing them down. I chose to leave it on the side of the road of life and keep going.

  When you take that road you will find you are more content with your life and those who have hurt you in the past do not hold that power over you any longer. I am more content with my real life and second life since I took this path of forgiveness. Its not perfect but in the end, I can only control myself and my own actions. And when worst comes to worst you remember Karma, it works for the good as well as the bad. I put the positive out there and wait for good things to come my way.

Have a great night kids!
XOXO,
Brie

My super cute outfit:

Pose is Je t'aime 5m by Adorkable Poses (Cause she rocks and has good turkey recipes)
Skin: Essences - Heidy Base Skin
Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Amelie Mesh Hair - Rouge
Dress: (CM) Woolsworth Dress MESH (argyle/black)
Tights: DeeTaleZ tights cotton pantyhose black
Shoes: lassitude & ennui Selene boots black
Nails: Synthetique Ultimate French Series -01-
Tattoo: - DAMNED - Neck Tattoo "I Love you"

My Name is Brie, I am a Bacon Addict.

  I can remember the first time I had a piece of really good bacon. I was about 7, I was staying with my grandma for the weekend as I did most weekends. But this weekend she thought I was finally grown up enough to have a "big person's" breakfast. So she had me lay under a blanket on the couch and watch cartoons while she got down to work.
  The sounds of Scooby and Shaggy were suddenly overpowered by the sizzling and amazing smell coming from the kitchen. My grandma brought out her ridiculously old cast iron skillet and began frying up bacon. I am sure I had some before then, but somehow that day it smelled so much better. She made us a few pieces each and fried up 2 eggs (1 for me, 1 for her) and made us each some toast. She topped it off with a cup of "coffee", which was basically coffee flavored warm milk but I thought it was the real thing. She then put it all on a little tray and brought it to me on the couch. And there we sat, with our big persons breakfast, watching Scooby Doo. It was a perfect way to start a day.
  Many, many years later, she was much older and I was well, older too. I was a mother and I lived with her now. She wasnt as healthy as she used to be and I was there to take care of her. My daughter was 4 and I was just getting out of the shower when down the hall I hear my grandmother telling my daughter... "Now Sammi, I think you are a big girl now, how about Nano makes you a big person's breakfast".
  I smile now when I think about it, she passed away this past March, she was hands down the best friend I ever had in my life. She taught me to live simply, to love deeply and to cherish each moment you have. She also taught me to love bacon, which I torment all my friends and pseudo-family with to this day. My daughter loves it too, and her "big person" breakfasts that we have, sitting on the couch just like she did with me. Except now instead of Scooby doo, we are watching Ruby Gloom or Monster High or whatever is cool to Sammi that week.
  So hi, my name is Brie.... I am a bacon addict :)

What I am wearing from head, to toe:

Hair: [e] Locked - Red 08
Skin: Glam Affair - Ginny - Europa - 02 Red HB
Bathing Suit: Pig - Bacon Wrap
Feet: Slink Womens Natural Barefeet (Mesh Rigged)
Glasses: Miamai_Rita Ivory Sunglasses
Necklace: BaCoN ~ Plate O' Happy Necklace
Nails: Synthetique Ultimate French Series -01-